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anger. When he faced Scott, he saw no trace of annoyance.
Scott took a step closer to Derek before speaking. "I'm the
one who should be apologizing to you Derek. You opened
yourself up to me. You allowed yourself to take a chance on
me and I failed you completely. I allowed my dad to force me
into a punishment I didn't deserve, and didn't fight for myself
at all. It's the story of my life with him. I accept what my dad
decides and believe I can't do anything about it."
Derek started to protest, but Scott held up a hand. "I
listened to you. Now you're going to listen to me. I lost
myself over the last month and in the process I lost you too.
That's not your fault Derek, it's mine. I'm the one who pushed
you away. Maybe I did it by forcing you to get angry and
frustrated. Maybe I created a situation to fool myself into
believing you were being selfish. I needed someone to be
mad at and you were the only one to lash out against. But the
real loser here is me.
"You say I brought things out in you. What you don't
realize is you have brought things out in me as well. You
welcomed me as a friend since the first day of school. You
introduced me to Beck and to the guys on the team. You
shared your music with me. You made me believe, for the
first time, that I could count on someone to be there for
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good. On top of everything, you made me like being gay. You
accepted me just as I am and loved me for it. No one has
ever made me feel so stable and secure."
Scott took another step towards Derek. "I've been
miserable ever since winter break, but my dad is not the main
reason why. I've gotten used to my dad being the way he is.
That needs to change, but it's so not the point right now. I
was miserable because I knew I hurt you. When you shut off
from me completely after you drove me to school and I said I
needed space, the best part of me slipped away with you. I've
done nothing but think about you and miss you. I've wanted
to get down on my knees and beg you to take me back, but
was afraid you didn't want me anymore. I still love you,
Derek. I never stopped."
Derek's whole body flooded with happiness and emotion,
his words barely audible, as tears began to spill down his
cheeks. "I still love you, too."
Scott took two steps closer to Derek. "What I'm trying to
say is I want you back in my life. Not just as my friend, but
as my boyfriend. Everything is better when I can share it with
you."
Derek's muscles began to go limp and his chest began to
heave. He was sure he was going to fall over at any moment.
He hadn't seen Scott close the gap between them, but was
thankful he had. As his knees began to buckle, two strong
arms wrapped around him, preventing him from crashing to
the ground. Allowing his body to sink into Scott's embrace, all
other sensations faded away, and Scott's arms wrapped
tightly around him was the only thing he cared about.
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Derek had no idea how long they stood holding one
another, but when they finally pulled apart, Derek stared at
Scott's face and saw pure affection through the tears
streaming down his cheeks. They both reached for each other
at the same time and their hands tangled.
Laughing, Scott raised his hand to cup Derek's neck in his
palm. Curving his fingers so they caressed the back of his
neck, he drew Derek towards him, bringing their mouths
together in a gentle, lingering kiss. Scott placed his other
hand on the side of Derek's head as the intensity of the kiss
increased. Their mouths opened and their tongues ventured
into each other's mouths, reclaiming the feelings and tastes
they had been deprived of for so long. Eventually, Scott's grip
on Derek eased and their kiss returned to a sweet and gentle
expression of love.
Pulling apart, they faced each other and Derek peered into
Scott's blue-green eyes. He had forgotten how beautiful they
were and suddenly realized why...the spark of mischief and
seductiveness had returned. To his surprise, even though
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